Shankar was standing on top of the tower overlooking the sea in that small coastal town. This was his favourite time of the day, the few minutes between sunset and dusk, the twilight zone. Most normal people would consider sunset, dusk and twilight as almost the same, the time of the day during which the sky appears orange or red and we bid adieu to the sun to be engulfed by darkness. But Shankar is a man of science; he is working as a research scientist in a big pharmaceutical company in the town. Though he was never a nerd in school, he was always good in science. To him the three words represented three different phases towards the end of a day that are as distinct as chalk, cheese and vanilla ice-cream. Sunset is when the sun starts going below the horizon, dusk is the moment at which darkness falls and twilight is the glorious period between these two events. The romantics of this world will say, and there are plenty of them, why bother with the detail just enjoy the show. But to him the beauty lies in details.
Even though he appreciated the beauty of the nature in all its splendour he was not a romantic, at least he didn’t think so. He thought of himself as a rational man who took decisions after analysing the pros and cons with his mind and not with his heart. Actually that’s a clichĂ©. How can anyone take decisions with their heart! Some people use their brains and others simply don’t. Luckily Shankar fell under the former category. So it was really a great surprise even to him when he first fell in love. That was five years ago. But it looks like yesterday! So much has happened in these past five years…
He checked his watch it was 6:13 PM. It was almost time; his date should be here any minute now.
Looking at the fading sun again, made him go into flash back mode. The tower, the soothing wind brushing his hair, the sea and the sand below all made him nostalgic. It is exactly during this time of the day and right here at the top level of the tower that he first met her…. Bhavna…
Five years ago
As was his routine on the days he got off early from office, he drove to the beach in his moped. It was a cloudy day so not much of the sun was visible. But still he rushed to the tower and climbed up, wishing the watchman on his way up who knew him from his childhood and smiled at him. As he came running to the terrace, the sun had already started setting but the clouds had totally covered the sun and the only tinge of orange that was visible was that on the cloud directly on top of the sun. Disappointed he turned around and started staring at the entrance door to the terrace.
Today was not one of the good days. It will probably rain in a few minutes and it was better that he left now. The chilly wind was soothing and he liked the way the cold got to his bones, a welcome relief from the pressures of his office. This was his getaway place. A getaway from all the tensions and problems of life. A momentary relief from the madness that’s life. A pit stop to refuel himself to continue racing. This place has stood witness to so many historic events. i.e. his personal history not world history! This is where he first came out with his friends. This is where he comes when he has a fight with his parents. This is where he took his first date, when he was 16 years old, tried to kiss her and got a slap! This is where he tried his first cigarette, his first beer and read his first playboy magazine in secrecy. And more than anything else, this is where he learned to enjoy the beauty of the Sunset.
While he was thinking about his personal history and his connection to the place the door opened and she walked in. At that exact moment the clouds parted and the sun came out as if to say ‘hi’ and the flush of the golden light fell right on her. Her hair glittered and looked reddish brown belying its actual black colour. Her skin glowed like it was gold coated and her eyes…. Her eyes…. Her eyes… Her deep brown eyes held him prisoner and walked in she did, right into his head!
She came in and looked at him staring at her.
“Hi”
“…Hmmm.. well yeahh”
“I am Bhavna”
“Hmmm.. Yeahh”
She was surprised that he didn’t even say his name. She looked at the sky and said,
“It’s beautiful isn’t it!”
“…..”
“Well I am sorry if I have disturbed you. You seem to be quite deep in thought”
“Thought…. Yeahh.. I am thinking… Yeahhh”
“I am new to the town, I came to the beach and chanced upon this tower and I thought I can just peep in. Sorry again. Bye”. And she moved to another part of the terrace.
Shankar was just dumb struck. He has seen quite a few cute girls in his life but none of them have caught his attention at first sight, like she did! May be it’s the sunset that enhanced her beauty. He kept telling himself, it should be the sunset. He turned around and looked at the sun. It had already vanished and left its shades on the distant horizon. He didn’t know what to do. He stole a quick glance over his shoulder and noticed that she was still there. He is not a romantic. He is not good at talking to random girls. But he felt compelled to do something! For all he knows, she may leave town tonight, or may have a boy friend or may even be married!
‘No! Why am I even thinking about all this! She is just a cute girl like any other. I should just forget it and let it go.’
At that moment she started moving towards the door. On her way out she turned and waved good bye to him. On an impulse he moved forward and asked,
“What was your name again?”
“Bhavna… Bye. It’s getting dark, gotta go back home.”
“Shankar”
“What?”
“My name - Shankar”
“Oh! Well… Bye bye Shankar”
“Coffee”
“What!!! Is that your second name?” She smiled mischievously.
“No. I mean, can we go for a cup of coffee?”
“Well, thanks for the offer. But as I said I am getting late and gotta get back home.”
That night they didn’t go for a coffee.
Lets not get into the ugly details of how he managed to follow her that night to find her address – yep Mr. rational did stoop that low! Then how he pleaded, begged and sort of coerced her into accepting his coffee invitations, which were followed by movies and dinners.
Between all this begging and pleading he did manage to find out some information about her. She was here on a summer vacation from
So after three months it was time for her to go. She was working as a lecturer in a university and had to go back before the university reopens.
Two days before she left for
Again lets not get into the details of how they kept in touch via phone, email, chat, scraps and wall posts, how she agreed at last, how she came back for the following vacation, how their families agreed after a little bit of a resistance (it helped that they belonged to the same cast!).
They got married the following summer and he had visited her in
Two and a half years ago – six months after marriage
As with every married couple everything went on really well for the first six months.
Bhavna had quit her job in
No it was not a love letter from one of her ex-boyfriends (between, she didn’t have any ex-boy friends!) it was a letter of admission from one of the prestigious universities in
She wanted to take up that course and Shankar didn’t want her to.
“Why shouldn’t I go?”
“Because we have got a life here”
“It has only been six months since we have been married. With your qualifications you will definitely get a job there, as I am a
“But I like my job here”
“I would like to do my PHD”
“Well in order to have a successful family we have to make some sacrifices”
“Exactly! So why can’t you sacrifice your job here and come with me?”
“But that’s impossible!”
“Why”
“Because we at the company, are at the verge of a break through in our research and it will suck if I have to quit now”
“Ok then I will go to
“No”
“Come on. You can live without me for a few months”
“The whole point of marriage is to live together”
“It is only a matter of months”
“But I don’t want to go to
“Why not?”
“Because I like it here”
“It seems that everything in our marriage is based on your likes and dislikes”
“No it is not like that. I am suggesting what is best for the family”
“Right now our family consists of only two people. You and me. And I don’t like your suggestion, so I can’t see how it’s for the benefit of THE FAMILY”
“Bhavna now you are in argumentative mood, I don’t this will take us anywhere”
“This is definitely not taking me to
“Ok that’s it. I am not going to
Finally she didn’t take up the PHD and decided to stay back, not whole heartedly though. It was the first of many storms to come…
It seemed that not even one day could pass without them having at least a minor fight. This forced Shankar to spend longer times in office and this made Bhavna feel lonelier and increased her urge to go back to her HOME country.
One year ago – Two years after Marriage
It was around 6:00 PM on a summer day, Shankar and Bhavna were walking along the beach, and the sun was setting in the horizon. There were not many people around them and it was quite peaceful. But it was only the ambience that was peaceful not their married life.
While they were walking along the beach Shankar was reflecting on all these events after marriage. He didn’t know how it all came to this. She was the love of his life and still is. But she had a knack of getting into his nerves. For the last few weeks they had even stopped talking to each other. Finally Shankar broke the ice and asked her out and here they were, a young couple at the beach during sunset but they hardly felt romantic.
Shankar started the conversation,
“It is very beautiful isn’t it?”
“… yeah…”
“I have very fond memories of this place”
“Is that the reason why you don’t want to go to
“Ah.. Come on Bhavna, Give me a break. I am trying to patch up and be nice and all you can do is go back to the same topic.”
“But that’s the most important topic to me! It is like
“Please don’t make it much bigger than what it already is!”
“I am not. But you are not even ready to give it a thought. You just want to avoid it!”
“We didn’t talk of anything about going to
“We didn’t talk about staying only in
“You know how much I love this town”
“You know how important that PHD was to me”
“Bhavna that was one and a half years ago and you still haven’t forgotten that!”
“It still pains Shankar”
“Is there any other alternative to get out of this issue?”
“No”
“So what is it that you suggest?”
“I have already made up my mind Shankar. I contacted my research professor in the university and he said that he would be glad to offer me the place again this year. So if I get it again I am taking it, come what may.”
“hmmmm”
“So will you even consider taking up a job in
“hmmmm…”
“It is time to decide Shankar. It is either this or that. You cannot get around it anymore”
“You are pushing me against the wall Bhavna”
“I have been suppressed for too long Shankar, I can’t take it anymore.”
“Do what you want Bhavna. I am not moving out of this town.”
After a couple of weeks, Bhavna got a call from her professor and was given a place for PHD again. This time she took it up and went to
Shankar felt that the world was crumbling around him. He wanted to shout at her and tell her that she was making a big mistake and wanted to beg her not to go. But he was too proud.
‘She is the one who wants the divorce and if she wants it she can have it.’
Since both of them mutually agreed for the divorce they got it in six months. And that was the last he saw of Bhavna, six months before, when she had come down to finish the divorce formalities.
Today – on the terrace of the tower
Time just flew by. In the past six months after the divorce, he was living alone in the apartment which he had rented for the both of them. She didn’t even call him once after going back to the
He checked his watch. It was 6:30 PM, the girl should be here any minute….
At that moment the door to the terrace opened and she walked in…
The golden rays of the fading sun descended upon her and her face shined in the bright light.
Her hair was reddish brown…
Her skin glowed like it was gold coated…
And…
Her eyes… Her EYES!!!! She had just walked in to his head!
“Shankar”
“… Yeahhh”
“What did you call me for?”
“Yeahhh…”
“You called me. Right?”
“Hmmm…”
“Are you even listening to me?”
“Yeahhh…”
“So…”
“Hmmm…”
How much ever he tried he just couldn’t concentrate on what she was saying. All he could do was just stare at her.
“Ok Shankar. I gotta go. Bye”
“Bhavna!!!”
“…”
“Please don’t go”
“I have work to do Shankar. Please tell me whatever it is that you want to tell me”
“Please don’t go”
“Yeah I am waiting! Tell me. Quick”
“I mean please don’t go away from my life...”
“What?!!!”
She couldn’t believe her years! She had come down to town to visit her ailing grand mother and then all of a sudden she got a call from Shankar asking her if they can meet to discuss about some financial details which were left out after the divorce. When she came here, she didn’t expect him to say this!
“I was a fool to let you walk away from me the first time. I don’t want to do it again.”
“But we are not married anymore, if you have forgotten.”
“So will you marry me?” (This time he did propose to her at his favourite location!)
“This is ridiculous. I thought you were a rational man!”
“Well I am tired of being rational. All I know is that I will be a stupid man, if I let you go!”
“Why this sudden change of mind?”
“Well I have always loved you.”
“But still you didn’t want to come with me to the
“Well I never thought you had apply for divorce. I didn’t know the PHD meant so much to you. But I couldn’t ask you to take the divorce application back as I felt too proud.”
“So what has changed now?”
“When you just walked in, after looking at your for the first time in six months, I realised how much I miss you. I cannot take this anymore”
“So…”
“I will look at the openings available for my profile in the
“What!!!! Are you serious?”
“Yeah. I will give it a try”
“But since we are not married anymore, you might find it a bit tough to get a visa and a work permit.”
“Oh! So you are going to leave me again?” He couldn’t hide the bitterness in his voice. He knew that he will come across as weak. But he didn’t care anymore.
‘There is no point in being strong and loosing the love of your life!’
“Well there is another option.”
“That is”
“If your Visa gets rejected, I would apply for the continuation of my research from one of my universities here, till we are formally married again!”
“What! If you can do your research from here, why didn’t you do it back then?”
“Well, I was really angry that you were not even willing to consider the option of finding a job there!”
“Oh! So all along, you knew that you could have done your research from here but still you opted to move away from me?”
“Well you opted to stay away from me.”
“Not again! So why should I consider taking up a job there when you can do your research from here?”
“SHANKAR! I thought you said something nice, so I just suggest an alternative. But if you go back...” He didn’t let her finish the sentence, he just kissed her.
He didn’t care whether he went to the
The Sun had vanished and the silhouette of the young couple kissing was barely visible in the moon light…. A new life was awaiting them. But no one knew whether it was in the
